A Trip Down the Memory Lane

Sorry if I've acted like a total jerk. I just don't want to prolong your agony. I don't want to hurt you even more (Yeah, saying "Who's this please" was actually better)... I know you'll be fine. You'll be fine.

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I still don't know where I'll do my internship. Frankly, I'm not happy to start again. Depression is taking over me. For the nth time... I want to die... I thought I was done with this crap. But here I am, missing you more and more each day.

I hate remembering how much I love you... I hate every memory...

I hate everything.

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It was a few days before Christmas, we were in Rob Place doing some window shopping. We went inside the bookstore (which was next to a flower shop). I sneaked out to buy you a bouquet... I remember how happy you were when I gave you the flowers. I thought we would always be together... I thought.

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It was the day before Valentine's Day. We were at Starbucks studying for an exam. Then I asked for my usual mall breaktime. I went out and bought you a bottle of perfume, So Givenchy (I still love the scent...). When I got back, you said you had to go to the restroom. And while you were away, I put the box underneath your pile of handouts. You were surprised when you saw the box. We were happy... We were happy... We were happy......................

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I wish I could also erase all our memories in my head like in the movie "Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind". I'm wishing hard... Wishing hard...