I NEED TO GET HIGH.

APRIL 30. This day was supposed to be my last day as an intern. But thanks to you - you who left me for dead, who left me to rot, who broke my heart, who took away every bit of sanity from my head - I have to start again. You said you'd never leave me... You said you'd always love me... You said... You said... You said so many things... You made me believe you'd always be there... But where are you now? In the arms of someone else. Being all fucking happy and in love. Damn you bitch! Damn you! I hate you! And I could never hate you enough!

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I'm on the highway to hell...

Boundaries.

D1 and D2.

D1 is a good friend, though now I find it annoying when he makes hirit about "us". I just can't take the idea of being with a man. I'd rather be alone. I don't reply to his messages like I used to. I think I'm drifting away from him. Hmmm...

D2 is becoming my late night textmate, though it's awkward when I see her. I vowed that I'd never ever date someone from our hospital again hence the big wall I'm trying to build. It's just weird.

Anyways, MN is hot. And it's such a small world... If only it's not creepy to send her a message.

Patience, my dear. Patience.

Au Revoir.

I woke up this morning and I realized something. I stopped loving myself.

I don't love myself anymore.

I'm drifting away.

What happens to the fallen hero now?

Karma.

Why should I be the first one to always make the move?

I'm getting bored with this game.

I am quitting.

No, I won't text unless you text me.

Damn it.

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Thanks for making me feel stupid. Ugh. Fine, I know that's what I get for dumping you (Yeah, I struck out.). I just wish you knew how sincere I was when I asked you for a chance.

You can't just force people to be serious. That is EMOTIONAL BLACKMAIL.

What you did last December was blackmail.

And I'm not that sorry for breaking your heart. You kinda asked for it.

We are even.

I hope I won't see you again. EVER.

Damn you.

Damn you.

Oh no, A.I. didn't..

It broke my heart when Didi got voted off earlier from American Idol. So unfair!!! Tim Urban should get chopped off soon because seriously he doesn't have what it takes to still be on that show. He shouldn't be in AI in the first place. He's just so annoying. I hate him... I hate him a lot.

What becomes of the brokenhearted, Didi? :(

I'll always heart you.

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"Jolene, Jolene, Jolene, Jolene, I'm begging of you please don't take my man... Jolene, Jolene, Jolene, Jolene, please don't take him just because you can.."

Been watching 90210 lately because Mandy Musgrave was there for 2 episodes. And now I'm hooked because of Adrianna (played by Jessica Lowndes). She is just too pretty. I love her.


She owns me. *dreamy eyes*

Avoiding the Black Hole

I almost got sucked in.

I don't know if I'm happy or not that I lost you again.

Weird feeling.