Conversion.

I have always considered myself a claustrophobic when it comes to work and relationships. I don't know how I do it, to be so attached and detached at the same time. No wonder my past relationships didn't work out well. Haha. Anyway, I was going through my "past" box and I happened to read my ex's letters. Most were written after fights, and she always complained about me being so distant. Am I really like that? I know I shun people away when I'm upset, when I'm angry but I think it's my way of keeping myself from doing something I might regret later on (which by the way, already happened, and I sincerely repented for that).

To make the story short, I think I'm on my way to being a convert. Yes, I found the right person I could be claustrophilic with. No more fear of restriction and suffocation. As for my internship, I'm still working on that. Maybe I was made to be a doctor after all. Only God knows.. :)

Things are looking up.

Thank you, Lord.

5 is Heart.

I was a stranger, and you came to my side
and you said 'oh, you're alright now'
And you were so knowing, I felt so lost and confused

Oh, I need you there
when the nightmares and dreams have come true

I barely knew you, but you talked til' you laughed
til' you cried out so loud 'someone save me'
Oh, black streaks of Maybelline run down your cheeks again
I prayed for answers, you take the chances or refuse

Oh, I need you there when the nightmares and dreams have come true
Oh, I need you there when the nightmares and dreams have come true

Yeah, we belong

Oh, I need you there when the nightmares and dreams have come true...

--- SOMETHING FOR THE REST OF US, Goo Goo Dolls