How much information do you really need to know about a person's past? Is it really important to know stuff like that?
I've never shared so much about my past except now. I don't know. I told her everything about mine and she told hers. She has 1 ex and probably tons of admirers before, I have 15 exs and 4 might-have-beens. How come her past matters to me while mine doesn't bother her? Maybe because I think she loved her ex so much, it was something real (2 yrs and 8 months daw). My longest relationship lasted for a year and 8 months, my shortest probably was only 14 hours. Only a few made me fall in love though I couldn't sustain the feeling, others were just there to fill in the gaps of my messy life. My constant yearning for attention and affection had gotten me into lots of trouble yet I never learned... only now. I feel she's real.. What we have now is real. And it drives me crazy to think that once in her life she already felt that. It's senseless, I know, but it makes me really jealous. *sigh* Oh well, I guess I have to live with that. Ho-hum.. :-(
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