All LOVE is EQUAL

26th of June 2013

8am - I woke up with a slight hangover from Cubby-ing last night. I turned to my side and she's there, the woman I want to be with for the rest of my life. I clutched my chest as I feel my heart beating faster. Today is the day that the US Supreme Court will decide whether the Federal Defense of the Marriage Act is constitutional or not. I moved closer to her and held her tightly. It's so scary to think that she might lose me someday. I don't want to be far away from her.

 9:30am - She made Eggs Benedict for breakfast. She was saying something but I couldn't hear her. All I could hear was my heart pounding. I didn't want to eat because I might throw up out of nervousness. We were just a few minutes away from the verdict. Oh, those excruciating minutes that seemed to be forever.

10am - She was closely following the SCOTUS blog. I couldn't. I didn't want to. I was on my twitter, refreshing the feed every second. And then I saw it, "DOMA has been struck down". My heart stopped for a second. My head couldn't absorb what was happening. She looked at me, almost in tears and said, "Oh, baby...". She sat on my lap and gave me a long kiss. When she pulled away, I was speechless. Then she said, "Nanananana, you can't back out now. We're getting married!".

I don't know how or why I got lucky. I am eternally grateful to my stars. I am lucky to be here in the US on this momentous day. I am lucky because at the most uncertain time of my life, we found each other. All the days that I drank alone at Cubby paid off (LOL). I can still feel how my heart skipped when I laid eyes on her. It took a lot of courage to be here with her but I have no regrets.

10 something am. Post-DOMA sex. Yes, that's the best way to celebrate a historical day! HAHA.

I went to school after and I was so giddy that I think people were weirded out. Didn't care at all. Nothing could take this day away from me. We have the right to be here, to love anyone we want.

6pm - We met at Stonewall. We kissed as everyone cheered for the great leap towards full EQUALITY. The woman, our hero Edie Windsor, couldn't be thanked enough. She had the guts to fight for what is hers, for what is ours.

I want to thank everyone who made this possible. My heart is truly grateful.

And baby... I will marry you anytime.